Beneath The Surface

Is there ever really a right time?
You had led me to believe
Someday you'd be there for me.

When the stars above aligned,
When you weren't so consumed...
I kept looking for the clues.

So I waited in the shadows of my heart
And still the time was never right.

Until one day I stopped caring
And began to forget why I longed to be so close.
And I disappeared into the darkness
And the darkness turned to pain
And never went away
Until all that remained
Was buried deep beneath the surface.

A shell of what things could have been.
Tired bones beneath a veil
Of guarded secrets all to frail
Sad to think I never knew
You were searching for the words,
For the moment to emerge.

Yet, the moment never came.
You couldn't risk my fragile frame.

Until one day you stopped caring
And began to forget why you tried to be so close.
And you disappeared into the darkness
And the darkness turned to pain
And never went away
Until all that remained
Was buried deep beneath the surface.

I would scream just to be heard,
As if yelling at the stars.
I was bleeding just to feel.

You would never say a word.
Kept me reaching in the dark.
Always something to conceal.

Until one day I stopped caring
And began to forget why I longed to be so close.
And I disappeared into the darkness
And the darkness turned to pain
And never went away
Until all that remained
Was buried deep beneath the surface.

Beneath the surface.