A Mind Beside Itself

Erotomania

Voices
Love, just don't stare
He used to say to me
Every Sunday morning
The spider in the window
The angel in the pool
The old man takes the poison
Now the widow makes the rules
So speak, I'm right here
She used to say to me
Not a word, not a word
Judas on the ceiling
The devil in my bed

I guess Easter's never coming
So I'll just wait inside my head
Like a scream but sort of silent
Living off my nightmares
Voices repeating me
Feeling threatened?
We reflect your hopes and fears
Voices discussing me
Others steal your thoughts
They're not confined
Within your mind
Thought disorder
Dream control

Now they read my mind on the radio
But where was the garden of Eden?
I feel elated
I feel depressed
Sex is death, death is sex
Says it right here on my crucifix
Like a scream but sort of silent
Living off my nightmares
Voices protecting me
'Good behavior
Brings the savior
To his knees'
Voices rejecting me
Others steal your thoughts
They're not confined
To your own mind

I don't wanna be here, 'cause of my
Suffering, 'cause of my illness
Only love is worth having, only
Love is what matters, loving every
People on equal terms

You've got to know who you're
Dealin' with, because, like a stranger
A-heh, just might come in through
Here with a gun, and then, what
Would you do? (heh)
Everything is immaterial
N' you know that reality is immaterial
This is not reality
I'm kneeling on the floor
Staring at the wall
Like the spider in the window
I wish that I could speak
Is there fantasy in refuge?
God in politicians?

Should I turn on my religion?
These demons in my head tell me to
I'm lying here in bed
Swear my skin is inside out
Just another Sunday morning
Seen my diary on the newsstand
Seems we've lost the truth to quicksand
It's a shame no one is praying
Cause these voices in my head
Keep saying
Love, just don't stare

Reveal the word when you're supposed to
Withdrawn and introverted
Infectiously perverted
'Being laughed at and confused
Keeps us pleasantly amused
Enough to stay

Maybe I'm just cassandra fleeting
Twentieth century icon bleeding
Willing to risk salvation
To escape from isolation
I'm witness to redemption
Heard you speak but never listened
Can you rid me of my secrets?
Deliver us from darkness?
Voices repeating me

Feeling threatened?
We reflect your hopes and fears
Voices discussing me
Don't expect your own messiah
This never world which you desire
Is only in your mind
Iii. The silent man
A question well served
Is silence like a fever?
A voice never heard?
Or a message with no receiver?
Pray they won't ask
Behind the stained glass

There's always one more mask
Has man been a victim
Of his woman, of his father?
If he elects not to bother
Will he suffocate their faith?
Desperate to fall
Behind the great wall
That separates us all
When there is reason
Tonight I'm awake
When there's no answer

Arrive the silent man
If there is balance
Tonight he's awake
If they have to suffer
There lies the silent man
Sin without deceivers
A God with no believers
I could sail by
On the winds of silence
And maybe they won't notice

But this time I think
It'd be better if I swim
When there is reason
Tonight I'm awake
When there's no answer
Arrive the silent man
If there is balance
Tonight he's awake
But if they have to suffer
There lies the silent man